Sunday 28 April 2013

#Diary2


Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?

#DiaryOfLove

Saat ini kehangatan itu hilang
bahkan senyummu hanya menjadi seberkas memori
hatiku sakit tanpamu
Bahkan jika aku adalah ilalang dan kau angin
Jika kau terus saja mendorongku menjauh aku bukan saja menjauh tapi mati
tak dapat tumbuh..

Mengapa suaramu terus terngiang di telingaku?
bahkan aku sudah membuang jauh suaramu agar tidak dapat kudengar lagi
namun kau terus berada disana
tidak cukup puaskah kau berada di hatiku?
memakunya terus menerus saat kau marah saat kau pergi
dan saat kau kembali kau menarik paku itu
dan membuat hati itu berlubang

Disaat aku berada dijalan dimana ada kenangan kita
Aku berlari menjauhi sumber rasa sakit yang lain
tapi kau terus mengikutiku
aku tidak yakin kau sama sepertiku
tersiksa sepertiku

Aku berjanji tidak akan menangis
menangis tidak ada gunanya saat ini
kau tetap pergi
Aku ingin pergi ke tempat dimana tidak ada kau
pergi menjauh darimu
dan aku tidak ingin wajahmu, suaramu, serta kenanganmu ikut bersamaku

I still love you


Even the memories are lost, even the warmth is gone… now.
I’m a scarecrow standing on one foot
I’m a sad scarecrow, my heart aching without you.
In the harsh wind, I keep swaying


Even when I try to send your voice away,
It lingers in my ears. It keeps lingering and I think of it again,
So that the time you were here can’t flow away, I block the way.


I’m a sunflower that only looks toward one place
Without you, I’m an ash-covered child with nowhere to go
In the harsh wind, I keep swaying
Even if my body scatters apart
If you’d come to me some day
I want to embrace you with my arms wide open.
I still love you.
I still love you


#Diary

I Know that my wishes has no meaning to you

#DiaryLove1

Aku ingin sakit di hati ini hilang maka aku memukul2 dadaku agar rasa sakit itu hilang tapi kenyataanya tidak bisa hilang

It’s okay even if it’s a painful love

It’s okay even if it’s a painful love

#Love Venus

Aku menangis namun Ia tidak melihat tangisku
Aku terluka namun Ia pergi bahkan sebelum Ia mengobati Lukaku
Aku terluka namun aku akan berkata aku baik-baik saja
Bagaimana bisa cinta berjalan jika kau saja tidak peduli
Jika harus pergi mengapa harus menyiksaku terlebih dulu
Aku akan berhenti mengusikmu lagi
Jika kau ingin pergi keduniamu semula
Jangan pergi membawa harapan padaku lagi
Aku terlalu kenyang mendengar janji-janji
Berjalan pelan-pelan akan lebih baik daripada berlari
Jika kau benar-benar ingin pergi
Aku hanya akan menguburmu bahkan dalam hati yang sudah dipenuhi lubang
Jangan menyesali apa yang telah kau lakukan padaku
Sekalipun aku terluka dengan penuh darah di hadapanmu
Jangan berbalik
teruslah berjalan menjauhiku
Jika kau berbalik dan kembali menemuiku itu hanya akan membuat lubang baru di hatiku
Jika saja dunia bisa diputar
Jika saja aku memiliki mesin waktu
Aku akan kembali disaat pertama kali bertemu dirimu
Tapi aku akan mengubah jalan yang saat ini kutempuh
Sehingga hatiku tidak akan sesakit ini
Terima kasih telah memberiku luka
Aku baik-baik saja walaupun hatiku terus meneriakan namamu

Love
Venus

That Person



That person was the one who made me smile
That person was the one who made me cry
With her warm lips to me
That person found my heart

I can’t erase that love
I can’t forget that love
That person was like my oxygen
That person is now leaving

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love

Even if my heart becomes tattered
Even if that memory pains me all day
The tears that person sheds
Hurts me even more

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
Instead of tears, instead of pain
Forget about me and live happily... my love

When our lives are over and we close our eyes,
Then remember me one time

That person. That love. My aching heart
You didn’t know anything
I loved you, and I love you
That’s why I have no choice but to let you leave… my love

My love... my love... my love... 


apakah kau mendengarnya?

Bagaimana aku dapat menempuh kehidupan dengan menahan luka mendalam atas cinta yang diberikan pada ku.
Meskipun setiap hari aku hidup dengan hati yang kosong akibat rasa rindu yang pahit,
aku sama sekali tidak menyesal pernah mencintaimu
.
Saat aku merasa rindu sekali padamu sampai-sampai menjadi gila,
aku hanya menangis tanpa diketahui orang lain.
Jangan melupakanku
aku senantiasa berada di sisimu.
Aku mencintaimu. 

Apakah kau sekarang mendengarkannya?

Meskipun kau tidak bisa kembali kepadaku, namun kita belum berpisah,
karena kau sekarang pergi untuk kembali lagi kepada ku kapan saja.


Sampai kapanpun aku  menantikanmu meskipun kau dulu melupakanku.
Karena aku mencintai mu, aku lebih mencintai mu daripada kamu sendiri.
Aku akan membawa air mata dan juga rasa sepiku.
Jangan menangis, kau, jangan menangis meskipun dunia membuat mu sedih.
Aku mencintai mu. Apakah kau sekarang mendengarkan ku?

The story I didn't know

you really have forgotten everything
at the time, I vaguely remember how painful it was
the wound that cant yet be removed
the tears didn’t flow

if I had known, at the time I’d have cried
I still had expectations, even at the time of leaving

I Told You I wanna Die – Huh Gak



I bring you up in my mind like this
Even the long moments, I remember
Again today, if only I can see your back
For just a moment

I can’t say anything else than I want to die
I can’t take on a life without you
I only wait for you to return
Now you are not here but
Please, I miss you so much, I love you

I’m a fool – I can’t let you go
I run out of breath, crazily
I try to push you out all night
But still -

I can’t say anything else than I want to die
I can’t take on a life without you
I only wait for you to return
Now you are not here but
Please, I miss you so much

I miss you to death
If only the heavens will allow you to me

Even if I die, I can’t leave, I can’t cast you aside
Oh no no no, what am I anyway?
Even if I die, I can’t leave, I love you
Don’t leave me here
Please, please, please – I love you

#SomethingAboutLove

Kuingin membencimu karna kutelah lelah
Melihatmu berpura-pura lupa pada diriku

#JustATear


Even though it hurts but a little, tears form
My heart screams out
If I pass in front of you, beside you
You were my whole world

#JustATear


You make me restless, you make me cry
Like a fool, like a child
I want to just laugh it off instead

By my self


by my self i say my love send away my love
in the folds of the lonely accumulated memories,the tears hang

It can't be


You doesn't know how much i love you
If only i know it, i'd rather go from the beginning
Why does my eyes keep chasing you
I just want to go on living well, but it can't be

#Patahan 47


you might turn around and come back
I count the memories one, two, three
As I stand in this place alone

#Patahan 47


you might turn around and come back
I count the memories one, two, three
As I stand in this place alone

#Patahan 46


Tears are falling – drip drip drip
My smile is disappearing – more and more and more
Because you once lived in my heart that I called love
And you have left me
Rain is falling – drip drip drip
I wonder if the skies know how I feel
I cover my eyes so I won’t hurt more, so I won’t see you anymore
I’m still in the same spot

I can't say it

The eyes say, my heart is hesitant again
Until the love touches you, I’ll always look at, look at you
I think of you even more, so miss you
Although my heart wants only you, but
I can’t say it, I still can’t say it
I love you, I can’t say it
Like a fool, couldn’t only hide the paid in the heart
When the love finally touches you, you’ll know it
You’re the only person that I allowed
I always look at you, so miss you
Although my eyes only look at you, but
I can’t say it, I still can’t say it
I love you, I can’t say it
Like a fool, couldn’t only hide the paid in the heart
When the love finally touches you, you’ll know it
You’re the only person that I allowed

So miss you, so anxious to see you, so cannot do anything

I still wait only for you
At any time, until the love in my heart touches you
Will it take too long? But I’ll take it.
Because I only remember you one person
Until the allowed love touches you

#Patahan 45

Trust me, I’m always in pain by myself

#Patahan 45

Trust me, I’m always in pain by myself

#Patahan 44


If only I took a step faster,
If only I took a step slower
Then we could’ve avoided our painful encounter
There’s no use even if I push you out, now I can’t let you go

#Patahan 43


Letting you go is not as easy as it sounds
I turn away, not being able to see you leave me
Tears eventually drop and I need to wipe them away now
I don’t know whether I should use the handkerchief you gave me or throw it away
Why won’t this trembling go away?